So during the No WiFi crisis, I wanted to get this tweed jacket at H&M. Had I got WiFi, I could probably still hold myself back. Distract myself with cat videos and whatnot.
Trust me. When you have no Wifi, you try to compensate your misery in thousand other ways.
You know how much I LOVEEEEE jackets right?
With 20% student discount, I was so ready to head to the mall or get it online only to realise I didn’t have my wallet with me.
Spring cleaned my entire house in search for that small purse and yep. No whiff of it. Not even a glimpse of the shadow of the wallet.
Naturally, I started panicking.
Aside from having cash that could last me a month, debit and credit cards, membership cards and whatnot, it had my Singapore IC (Identification Card).
After calling the last store I was at and confirming that they didn’t receive any wallet, I called the banks to cut all my cards.
I called so many people, okay, fine. About 5 calls. For someone who doesn’t like calling people,
unless ordering food, that is a lot of people! This is exclusive my dad.
Note: Hey Pops! If by any chance you happen to stumble upon this blog and this post, I just wanna let you know that I didn’t mean to put you last. I just wanted to make sure that I’ve been thorough and do the necessary so I can minimise the things you need to do.
Trust me. I understand whoever found my wallet and not returning it. It was so pretty. *flipsshawl*
The days leading to this loss, I’ve been reading ‘Reclaim your Heart’ book by Yasmin Mogahed.
One of the chapter was about loss and dealing with it and more.
Dealing with inner peace time after time made me realise that God tests us for two reason.
- He loves us.
- He wants to see how we react to the calamity that He puts in our way (with or without warning).
Funny how I thought that ‘one day, I’ll lose my wallet and I’ll have to go through all sorts of trouble to get certain things replace and restart with a new wallet,’ scene will happen when I’m back in Singapore. Being a career girl and all.
Then BAM! It happened right now. On an unfamiliar ground. As a student. Away from home. Away from family. Away from local banks. Most importantly, depending financially on my dad.
I imagined the situation with being working and all because then, no one will be afflicted or bothered at all. It’s my loss and my trouble alone.
But who am I to predict and avoid this situation?
Before you think I’m clumsy, I usually am when it comes to maths and academic matters but not when it comes to money.
The wallet was secured in a backpack.
It is also funny how I wasn’t as sad as I would have imagined I’d be.
Realised I lost my wallet in the morning.
By afternoon, I was eating
this and laughing my belly off watching whatever I had on my hard disk.
There was hardly any frustration or anger or regrets that younger me would have.
It was a designer wallet. It had loads of cash. Double happiness for the one who found it. Literally.
But really, it was not about the “designer” wallet or the “lost cash” that I was most upset about.
The wallet has a sentimental value. For someone special. For that special someone whose no longer around.
But hey! I always believe that when ‘He puts you to it, He will put you through it’.
No way. No way will He leave you alone.
Afterall, it was an attachment that He probably wanted me to get rid off.
I’d like to share this excerpt from the book ‘Reclaim your heart’ by Yasmin Mogahed:
And when such people feel trapped by life, by financial hardship, by pain, by loneliness, by fear, by heartbreak, or sadness, all they have to do is turn to Allah, and He always makes a way out for them. Know that this is not feel-good theory. It is a promise. A promise made by Allah Himself, who says in the Qur’an”
“…And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out, and He provides for Him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him…” (Qur’an, 65:2-3)
That’s the amazing thing about the the floor of the ocean. No light reaches it.
However this dark place is not the end. Remember that the darkness of night precedes the dawn…. You can stay at the bottom, until you drown. Or you can gather pearls and rise back up – stronger from the swim and richer from the jewels.
If you seek Him, God can raise you up, and replace the darkness of the darkness of the ocean, with the light of His sun…. Know that transformation sometimes begin with a fall. So never curse the fall. The ground is where humility lives. Take it. Learn it. Live it. Breathe it in.
As Ibn ul Qayyim (ra) has said: “Satan rejoiced when Adam (peace be upon him) came out of Paradise, but he did not know that when a diver sinks into the sea, he collects pearls and then rises again.”
You can find the second edition (latest hitherto) here.
As I told my dad,
(coming from a foodie family background, can you tell where this sentence is going? Hehe.) he panicked for my wellbeing going, “What about food? Do you have enough?”
Good thing is my fridge and dry pantry is stocked. To the brim.
MasyaaAllah, He even prepares me prior to losing monies and access to it.
All these reminders, boy am I glad to go through this.
Any hardship that you’re going through, may your affairs be eased.
Remember that when He puts you to it, He’ll put you through it.